“Tired Mummy Brain” meets “Assignment Due Brain”

Tomorrow is the last day I have available to get my last assignment written.  Usually this wouldn’t be a problem, but I have tired mummy brain 😦

Elise, did the sweetest thing earlier, so sweet it brought tears to my eyes! She simply got a chair out for me, so I could sit at the table and get on with some study! I’d been grumpy with her most of the day as I’d been trying to juggle her being clingy and studying, yet she could still see past that, love me and give me what I wanted/needed.  It was humbling receiving her love when I haven’t been very lovable.  And the best part of the day was when she snuggled up to me for a bedtime cuddle, looked me straight in the eyes and beamed the biggest (and possibly cheekiest) smile and whispered to me:

“I Love You Mummy! You’re the cutest and bestest mummy in the world! Tonight I’m going to wait til you’re asleep and then I’m going to cuddle up to you so you can sleep tight”

Tonight, even though tired mummy brain has a serious chance of success, she has inspired the assignment due brain, and I WILL get this assignment done – for her, for my other children but most of all for our FUTURE.  I will continue, and I will succeed!

Kids have an uncanny way of knowing what we need to hear and when – we NEED to listen to them, children can be the greatest medicine and inspiration we will ever know.  Our children are our future, our hope – if we neglect them, and don’t find time for them to just be with them and make them feel special, needed and wanted, what hope is there for the future…?

Can you imagine the future without the love of a child, without the trust of a child, without a child’s smile and their simple words that touch our hearts so powerfully – that’s not a future I want, so I will make time for them (any child that’s in my life) and make sure our future is full of hope!

But for tonight, I think that I will indulge the tired mummy brain, go to bed and wake up tomorrow ready for another day, awaiting the blessings that are our children 🙂

Peace and blessings to everyone x

Wow time has flown!

Firstly I want to apologise for not writing on here for ages – time really has flown by, it really doesn’t seem possible so much time has past, life is on fast-forward!

An update on my degree.  Well it’s almost the end of the 2nd year and my exam is on the 10th October, it’s coming up too fast, and I have got a fair bit of revision to do before then.  My assignment scores have been consistent and I’m on track for a 2:1 would be a first if I was at a ‘brick’ uni, but hey I’m doing well 🙂

It’s been the summer holidays, and I have been spending some amazing time with my children – we have completed lots of walks and seen some beautiful scenery.  We have been inspired and filled with love and laughter.

I’ve also started a healthy eating plan, as I am trying to lose some weight.  Over the holidays I have managed to lose almost 9lbs and 19 inches too 🙂  I feel so much better for losing the weight and hoping to lose another stone to bring me to the lower end of my ideal weight range.  This is in the hope that it will continue to reduce the pain in my joints and muscles and that I will have more energy to spend doing the things I love!

A bonus of changing the way I am eating, is that I have become much more aware of portion sizes and I have rekindled my love of cooking.  There have been some interesting (and very yummy) kitchen experiments as well as new favourite fruits and vegetables

Update

The second year of my law degree officially starts in 2 days time (ok technically it starts tomorrow seeing as it is past midnight).  I have been busy preparing for the course to start and checking that all the forums, software and databases are working.

I have also been asked to crochet a blanket for a wheelchair user (in the same colours as the rainbow poncho)  I’ve been inspired by ChrissyFresh: A Granny A Day Project and have decided that I am going to crochet enough granny squares to make this blanket – I have a plan and know exactly what colours I’m using for each square, I just have to find the time to get the hooks out.  I currently have 3 squares for the blanket (pics up soon) and I am also doing a rainbow blanket for Elise.

My eldest son, Ryan, has been unwell this week, I received a phone call from his school on Monday morning and I had to pick him up.  We got half way home and he decided he was going to vomit all over the inside of my car and down the windows too as he tried to get his head out the window – poor kid was so upset and kept apologising to me because he had made a mess.

In between being a ‘nurse’ to Ryan I have been taking in an engagement party dress – I have been horrified at the construction of this dress and, although it does look absolutely beautiful from the outside, the stitching quality and fabric placement has been just awful.  I did a fitting tonight after band practise and just need to do a couple of minor adjustments for a final fitting on Sunday, which should also be the time I hand it back and think myself lucky I won’t have to see it again (here’s hoping).

Talking of band practise, the little girl I’m teaching to play cornet is making me so proud, and is now on a planned introduction to the band rehearsal, she should hopefully be playing out with them in 5 weeks time when the band is next responsible for providing the music in our morning Church service.

I will hopefully get the book reviews out the way tomorrow (or should that be later today?) I haven’t slept yet so it’s still today (Thursday).  Will have to arm myself with Twitter and my Kindle so I can refresh my mind on the books and get the reviews done.  I honestly haven’t forgotten that I have a back-log, it’s just someone has hidden the life-remote-control and life is currently running on fast-forward.  I wish someone would return the life-remote-control so I can press pause for a few minutes and get some peace.

30 Things About Me:

https://jdaviesx.wordpress.com/about/30-things-about-me/

This was a Twitter trend and I decided to write this up on a page instead of writing it all in a blog entry

Assisted suicide

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-16410118

Well it’s something I think everyone knew would come about at some point.  There have been many people who have sought clarification of the current laws regarding assisted suicide and the possibility for criminal prosecution for those who have aided loved ones, either by supporting them at home or by helping them to travel to the countries where it is legal.

Fundamentally I disagree with a form of killing, including abortion and euthanasia, however, I am moved by the stories of people who wish to end their life with dignity and to lessen the suffering that their illnesses/ conditions will inevitably bring as they progress.  I belive that people should be given the choice, but that it should be an informed, rational and reasonable given their prognosis.

There is a very strong argument that we show more compassion for animals and that when they are suffering we humanely put them to sleep for them to suffer no more.  I am not in any way trying to equate human life with animals.  However, we do get attached to our pets and class them as part of our families, we mourn them in just the same way that we would mourn the passing of a parent, spouse, sibling, child or friend.

My biggest worry about assisted suicide is the rules and regulations that will be made to govern the whole issue.  I think we are heading on the right track to limit it to people with only 1 year left to live and I also think that it’s great that there is the proposal that 2 doctors would have to be convinced of the state of mind of the person requesting assisted suicide.

Another worry is regarding who decides there is only 1 year left to live?  Sometimes the medical profession simply gets things wrong.  Take the example of the Lockerbie bomber for instance; released on compassionate grounds due to having incurable cancer that would take his life within 1 year, some 2+ years later (although still very ill) he is very much alive.  And what about medical/ scientific advances? What if a cure was found that would reverse the illness or have given the person suffering a new lease of life?

Whatever your view on assisted suicide, it looks like we are a step closer to it happening.  All we can do is pray for those people who will be affected by this, pray that no person feels compelled to it out of a feeling of ‘duty’ and fear of being a burden.  But most of all pray for the people who are going to be debating and writing these laws and for the minds of the medical professionals who will ultimately be responsible for ending the life of another person.