“Tired Mummy Brain” meets “Assignment Due Brain”

Tomorrow is the last day I have available to get my last assignment written.  Usually this wouldn’t be a problem, but I have tired mummy brain 😦

Elise, did the sweetest thing earlier, so sweet it brought tears to my eyes! She simply got a chair out for me, so I could sit at the table and get on with some study! I’d been grumpy with her most of the day as I’d been trying to juggle her being clingy and studying, yet she could still see past that, love me and give me what I wanted/needed.  It was humbling receiving her love when I haven’t been very lovable.  And the best part of the day was when she snuggled up to me for a bedtime cuddle, looked me straight in the eyes and beamed the biggest (and possibly cheekiest) smile and whispered to me:

“I Love You Mummy! You’re the cutest and bestest mummy in the world! Tonight I’m going to wait til you’re asleep and then I’m going to cuddle up to you so you can sleep tight”

Tonight, even though tired mummy brain has a serious chance of success, she has inspired the assignment due brain, and I WILL get this assignment done – for her, for my other children but most of all for our FUTURE.  I will continue, and I will succeed!

Kids have an uncanny way of knowing what we need to hear and when – we NEED to listen to them, children can be the greatest medicine and inspiration we will ever know.  Our children are our future, our hope – if we neglect them, and don’t find time for them to just be with them and make them feel special, needed and wanted, what hope is there for the future…?

Can you imagine the future without the love of a child, without the trust of a child, without a child’s smile and their simple words that touch our hearts so powerfully – that’s not a future I want, so I will make time for them (any child that’s in my life) and make sure our future is full of hope!

But for tonight, I think that I will indulge the tired mummy brain, go to bed and wake up tomorrow ready for another day, awaiting the blessings that are our children 🙂

Peace and blessings to everyone x

Clawback – Gemma Rice – 5*

Although I have tagged this with “Christianity” and “faith” it’s not what I would describe as a religious book.  I have added these tags due to one line when Steffani is getting a tatoo of a cross done on her hip –

Sometimes we’re nailed to that cross; sometimes we’re carrying that cross; sometimes we find salvation and peace through that cross.

She describes how she is into symbols and that this is the reason she is getting the cross tatoo, and this quote really stood out for me.

I’ve also tagged this as being “controversial” and “may be disturbing to some”, this book records the story of Steffani being in an abusive relationship and details the cheating, isolation and fear that she experiences and goes on to show the good new life she forms for herself when she is finally able to break free completely and become a survivor.

I normally struggle when reading stories about domestic violence as I have been there.  However, I have to admit that this story was so accurate and believable, making me want to continue reading to find out how the story ended.  There wasn’t masses of detail about the types of abuse that Steffani experienced, but it clearly showed the way a person slowly and surely becomes the centre of your world and isolates you from everyone else you know and everything you like.

This is one of the few books that has made it to a 5* rating with me, and one that I will definitely re-read.

They say that every story has an element of truth to it, and I just pray that the writer of this book wasn’t modelling her character on herself.  It was written in a way that makes you wonder if she has personally been there.  If she has been there, it certainly looks like she has come out the other side – but then is this just a fantasy of how she would like it to end; her hopes and dreams?  I do not know and would not like to make something of nothing, but there is an accurate truth and insight with this story.

So many people wonder why when someone is in an abusive relationship that the person doesn’t just get up and leave – this book explains it perfectly and would be a real insight to someone who hasn’t been through it personally or by knowing someone who has gone through it.